Stillness
“Many myths, sacred stories, and rituals are attempts to recreate a sense of stillness. This is their essence. Indeed, without some awareness of stillness, ritual takes on only its external approximation, becoming heavy and solemn. On the other hand, ritual that arises out of the experience of stillness is a light and joyful thing.” Swami Jabir Rishi
This morning after meditation and our morning Dharma teaching, a group of students sat with me over breakfast and we had a rich discussion about surrender and letting go. Some of us decided that we tend to get overly focused on the action of letting go….and letting go of things. Perhaps just surrendering to a situation, letting it be, was the way to let a little freedom, a little space, a little stillness appear in the thick of our lives. We agreed that freedom may not have anything to do with outer conditions being calm and peaceful.  But a few students wondered whether it would be easier in some ways to live a monastic life. After all, as a monastic, our days are filled with rituals that pull us down out of our heads into our hearts…..into stillness. Yet ritual can become as mechanical as the daily commute.
Sometimes a great stillness can appear in the midst of facing obstacles, or great shocks. Some of us remembered that happening in NYC on 9/11, or in the midst of private shocks. Swami Rishi once shared with me, “Stillness is not the same thing as silence, nor is it like quieting the mind.  It does not operate on a simply personal level. The stillness we are interested in knowing is always within us, even as we are within it, and we find freedom through our contact with it. As we become established in our contact with its power, we recognize that all our desires, wants, needs, insecurities, and tensions are nothing. Underlying every pursuit, and even our quest for meaning as a whole, is the longing for contact with stillness. When we have this, what more is needed?”
We remember this longing in a moment of stillness. This is what we really wanted, we remember. We didn’t really need all those things we thought we needed. And all those urgent matters that were keeping us from sitting down and being still? In contact with stillness, they don’t even seem real. In stillness, we are granted the blessing of complete acceptance. We are given a place to be.
Last year, while in India, I had the blessing to catch this gem from the lotus heart of my teacher, the Dalai Lama:  “If you utilize obstacles properly, then it strengthens your courage, and it also gives you more intelligence, more wisdom. Obstacles can cause us to make special kinds of efforts.” he explained. “Obstacles can invite insight, understanding, hidden capacities. And underlying those gifts, is stillness.”